It’s been quite a while since I’ve written. I’ve been moving through the most humbling, tumultuous, and demanding time of my life. I took time away to gain some much needed perspective, give myself every opportunity to receive some very good, deep rest, and find my Power Spot…more about that last part in a bit.

These past several months I’ve been focusing on healing from a handful of health-related challenges that have been so incapacitating and profound that I’ve been transformed, in every way possible.

Since very nearly dying at the tail end of my pregnancy in 2015, and going into multiple organ failure along the way, it’s been a very long, confusing, and hard road back to health. Here’s a short list of what I’ve overcome since 2015:

• Adrenal exhaustion – completely kaput!
• Inability to regulate my blood sugar
• Inability to regulate my body temperature
• PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder)
• Under-functioning thyroid
• Brain fog, memory loss, a lot of disorientation and confusion
• A full body rash that resembled shingles, but lasted for several months
• Insomnia, even though I was exhausted
• Losing control of my bowels – super humbling… 🙁
• Severe episodic edema – It was like I was living in someone else’s body
• Not recognizing myself in the mirror – A very disorienting experience

All of this, and more, happened within the context of becoming a new mother. Even though my body did its best to heal, I gave most of my time, attention, and energy to my young son.

This is the typical journey of every first-time mother – trying to figure out how to manage her own needs amidst the high demands of taking care of an infant and young child. But because my health challenges were so intense, debilitating, and all-consuming at times, this journey was particularly humbling and intense.

I had moments when I felt desperate to feel like myself again. I also had moments when I felt terrified that that day might never arrive.

I questioned the wisdom of my body and why it was doing what it was doing. I had to keep reminding myself that the healing journey isn’t always a straight forward, linear, ever-increasing process, which is what my mind expected and wanted it to be.

I had to remember that I was healing, even if it looked much different than I thought it would and should. The time frame – how long this healing journey took – was particularly tough for me. Being as uncomfortable as I felt, for as long as I did, was grueling.

I also received of a lot of judgment from others, which was painful. I knew I was doing everything that I possibly could to heal as fast as I could, and it still took a long time.

I’ve learned that the body heals in its own time frame, that the healing process doesn’t look or even feel like what we think it should, and that true healing happens in a way that cannot be rushed or forced to go faster than it will.

I’ve received commentary from some who decided that my health crisis and healing journey were signs that I wasn’t spiritually enlightened enough, or paying attention to my personal growth the way that I should have – as if my experience was some kind of punishment or retribution for something I did, or didn’t do well enough, or in the “right” way.

I’ve learned that this New-Age line of thinking is false, and very hurtful. I believe I’m a spiritual being that’s having a human experience. Sickness and illness are sometimes part and parcel of the human experience, and no amount of intention or “rightness” can completely protect us from that. 

I’ve learned that when it comes to our state of health, there is always an opportunity to learn, grow, and evolve. As challenging as this time was, it’s also been an incredibly rich journey for me. Out of all of this adversity I’ve grown immensely.

I’ve lived through something that many women don’t actually survive, which puts me in a unique position to share my new awarenesses with you. 5 women an hour, from all around the world, die from the condition I had at the end of my pregnancy. And now, thankfully, my health is returning after a very long road of recovery.

Amidst everything that I’ve been through, I’ve discovered that it is possible to navigate through an agonizing journey like this, and come through to the other side feeling enriched, softened, strengthened, fortified, opened, grateful and alive. 

Although I wouldn’t ever want to go through what I’ve been through again, I wouldn’t want to give up the gifts and grace that I’ve received along the way. In fact, my experience helped me to discover my Power Spot, which has changed everything for me, for the better.

I’ll be sharing more about the Power Spot in the coming days and weeks – what it is, and why it’s so important for every modern day woman who wants to get out of overwhelm and start looking and feeling better, so that she can live her life from a deeper place of vitality, joy, sacredness, and power. I’ll also share with you how you can discover your Power Spot, too, so stay tuned for more!

It feels good to be back in touch with you. I’m very grateful to be here, and I’m grateful for you.

With deep love and transcendent health,

Alicia

PS: If you’ve gone through, or are currently in a health crisis of your own, I want you to know that I understand what you’re going through, or have gone through. Never forget that you are more powerful than you know, and that support is available to you! If anything that I’ve written here has resonated with you, or even if you simply want to reach out and say “hello”, I’d love to hear from you! I’ll be reading all of your replies personally, so reply to this email and drop me a note!