I’ve been in a cocoon of sorts. I do this every year between Christmas Eve and the first week of January. It’s a magical time of year and I take full advantage of it by going very inward and being very self-reflective. I journal, take naps, read, watch inspiring movies, and practice exceptional self-care. It’s a time of year that I look forward to and savor.

Now that I’ve been “back to reality” so to speak for the past week, I’ve been very sensitive to the internal shift that has happened inside of me. To be honest I feel a bit like a butterfly who is just poking its antennae out from the safety of its cocoon. I’m feeling things out. I’m getting a sense of what feels good and right and true. I’m moving slowly and deliberately, and it feels really good.

This slow and deliberate movement is an often overlooked ingredient for all of us movers and shakers in the world. Don’t get me wrong, there has definitely been a little voice inside of my head that is telling me to “hurry up and be productive!” But I’m not so interested in what this sometimes overbearing voice has to say. I’m more curious about what my heart and my soul’s deepest longing are whispering to me. I’m moving away from being motivated by fear and obligation and I am confidently walking toward my desires and the things that support me in feeling good.

Part of me is saying, “Thank goodness! Finally!” And I wish that was the end of the story here. But there is still a little fear and trepidation holding on and telling me that true security lies in working really really hard and neglecting myself, my needs and my happiness in the process. Even as I write this I know that I can’t ever go back to the way I used to live my life. That chapter is over. But I’m still a bit wobbly in this new place of following and trusting my bliss.

Will it be okay? Will people still love me? Will my needs be met? Will I actually get to live the life I dream about every day? Is it really okay to trust that feeling good is the right thing to trust? Am I being selfish? What will my friends and family think? I don’t know if these voices ever really fully go away. I think they are there to protect us from harm. And I thank them for that.

But this time I am going to listen to my heart. To be continued….!

To all of your radiant possibilities and much more,