I’ve been busy planning on how I can set up a little studio space for myself in my home. It’s funny… for months and months I’ve been searching Pinterest for images of art studios and pinning like my life depends on it – even before I signed up for art school.

And still, some part of me has been questioning my decision to make this the year when I devote more time and space to creating art… hahaha.

Well, it seems my decision was actually very aligned, and perhaps even a long time in the making! I’m fascinated by this journey, especially because I couldn’t see this as the “right” next step for myself.

I know that with the decisions I am making right now – to make a room in my home into my very own art studio and creative space AND to sign up for art school – I am overriding decades of beliefs and inner programming that wouldn’t give me permission to explore this.

There were always too many other important things I had to do. Too many other responsibilities to tend to. Too much of me was committed to operating in that “I need to prove myself”, “Look at how busy I am!” kind of way.

I’m almost certain some of that will come up for me in the art school program, too… as in me feeling the need to prove it was a good decision because I’m creating something good or likeable, worthy or meaningful inside of that program.

But I’m aware of those tendencies. Awareness changes everything!

The room I’m making into my very own creativity zone isn’t necessarily the first space in my home that I’d choose for something like this. So, I’m sitting with an important question: How do I make this into a space that I can’t wait to spend time in? Because that’s how I want to feel when I’m in there.

I’ve found some furniture that I think will work well, and now it’s about setting it up and figuring out how to make the space work well for me. It’s a process and an unfolding. Goodness, I feel so happy about it!

Honestly, this is something I’ve wanted for myself for at least the past 10 years. When I moved into this house in 2014 I thought it was going to be possible for me to have a space to create in, but that just wasn’t the case at that time.

But now… NOW is when it gets to happen. NOW is when I’ve given myself permission to have this. NOW is when I get to explore this without any agenda other than self-discovery and FUN.

What a gift this is to me. I’m SO grateful!